anyways, back to funny stuff. after the bus thing we went to IO. i was singing some good stuff at the start like gin blossoms and green day but as the night wore on i found myself singing gary v. and VST songs. i was shaking my booty like hell and i drank myself silly. after getting wasted and blowing much of my allowance, we tried to get a taxi outside and as we walked one of my buds started running. we chased the dumbass and he stopped in front of the big brother house and he was yelling “kim lumabas ka na, gusto na kita makita!” then he yehlled at me, “batch! kunan mo ko ng pityur!” and i actually did. and then i also got my picture taken there. damn funny shit.

i’ve been looking at the blank wall of my room for a while now

trying to remember things we’ve said, the things i’ve done

that made you leave. my convictions were clear enough and my

arguments were sound. but everything seems to bear no weight

now. sure, i might have proven my point but it doesn’t matter

now that i have lost you. 2 oras ko na sinusubukang matulog

but i still can’t sleep. my bed feels so unfamiliar without

you. what’s left is your lingering smell, that is the only

thing tha comforts me right now.

have we lost it?

i don’t want to think that we’ve grown apart as the years

progressed. i love u still. no, i love you more. sorry if i

dont remember our”monthsaries” if there is such a word. its

because i’ve always thought that relationships are counted in

years and not months. sorry kung di ko na nasasabe araw-araw

na mahal kita, i just think kase na our love has transcended

words. sorry for saying stupid things.

i love you.

Tell me, will a moment’s repast satisfy

Or shall we stare at half empty bottles

Of incoherent discussions and late night prattle?

I have been stabbing our fare, this slab of meat

With my spoon

Wildly, earnestly.

I grow weary of this singular chore.

But no taste can ever satiate

Except this fare.

The candle is but a meager length

Of what it used to be.

Light dangerously flickering,

Dancing on the brink.

Now I can only make out

A figure.

Your outline etched, unmoving.

Tell me love, do you see the man

On my right?

He laughs heartily.

Like a fool.

Jim Carrey on crack.

Dining alone,

Eating alone

Like a wolf,

Everything and anything

Devoured.

Sometimes I stare at the mirror,

Jim Carrey on crack.

Like a fool.

Laughing heartily.

My mind amuck.

NO, I would rather

Eat this insufferable meal,

Stale, cold pleasure.

Scene– Inuman sa resto

K: Sana tumama na ko sa lotto bukas, 100 million na pot e.

E: Pucha naman pare 50 na nga lang baon mo nagsusugal ka pa.

K: Kaw naman boss e malay mo manalo ko.

E: Pare what are the chances of u hitting the jackpot? Ambaba ng probability dude.

K: Iniba ko na configuration ng altar ko ngayon e.

E: Baket may santo ba dun sa altar mo.

K: Wala naman pero may elephant ako na nakalagay dun. Saka bumili na din ako ng insenso kahapon.

E: Pota nagchachant ka sa harap ng altar mo?

K: Di naman, naghuhum lang. Astig nga yung amoy ng insenso ko e feeling ko nasa astral plane ako.

E: Gago that’s the same thing you said nung pinagsabay mo cough syrup tapos Cannabis Sativa e.

K: Iba naman yung feeling ko nun boss e. Nung nasa taas ako ng bubong namen tapos dinale ko yun nakataas kamay ko sa mukha ko. Iniiwasan ko yung mga stars kase feeling ko nahuhulog e.

Act 2

Scene– Nakita ko sa daan si Mr. K at isa nyang kaibigan

E: Oi sakay.

(Sabay pasok sa kotse si Mr. K at si friend)

E: Hinahanap ko kayo kahapon a. San kayo pumunta?

K: Nag-exam kse ko kahapon e kaya missing in action.

Friend: Sus, nakita kita kasama mo si _____ kahapon e papasok kayo ng Quezon Memorial Circle.

E: Inuuto mo pala ko dude e. Ano ginawa nyo dun?

K: Nagrent ng bisikleta tapos umikot-ikot dun sa circle, ayoko kase uminom baka masuka ulet ako kaya dun ako nagtago.

Act 3

Scene– Labas ng klase, nagyoyosi.

K: Boss ilan ka dun sa presentation ng artwork?

E: Ayos lang. 1.75 lang, ikaw?

K: Hehe wala ka pala e ako 1.5 e.

E: Panget nga ng report ko e, ginaya ko lang si Jimi Hendrix sa star spangled banner yun nga lang Lupang Hinirang tinugtog ko. Ikaw ba?

K: Nagdala ako ng paso.

E: Anong klaseng paso?

K: Yung ginagamit kong ashtray sa bahay.

E: Taenang to ano sinabe mo? Na ikaw gumawa?

K: Syempre. Saka sabe ko din marunong ako bumasa ng aura ng tao. Sabe ko nga kay ma’am pale blue yung aura nya. Nageexude sya ng sensitivity.

Act 3

Scene– Nkaupo sa may AS steps nang may dumaan babae at ginreet ako.

Girl: Tapos na ba report nyo kay sir?

E: Di pa e. Kayo tapos na?

Girl: Di pa e next meeting pa.

E: Ah ok sige.

K: Kilala mo yun?

E: Oo kaklase ko sa P.I.100 baket?

K: Yun si orange e!!! Yung kinukwento ko sa yo.

E: Ah yun ba yun?

K: Oo maganda ba?

E: Ayos na.

K: Anong ayos na? Di ko pagpapalit yun kahet kay Kristine Hermosa.

E: E di ba yung si orange yung may boyfriend na may-ari ng airlines?

K: Oo yun nga.

E: Tapos naka-BMW?

K: Oo

E: Asa ka naman bro.

K: Baket,anlayo ko naman gwapo dun e. Matt Damon to bro!

E: Sbe mo e. Pray tell, baket yun yung syota nya at di ikaw?

K: Nauna lang sa kin nanligaw yun.

E: Ulul, di mo nga malibre nang cheese sticks yun si orange e.

K: Kaya nga ako tumataya sa lotto e para kapag nanalo ko maliligawan ko na din sya.

E: Sira, kung gaano ka-slim yung chance na manalo ka sa lotto ganun din ang chance na maliligawan mo yan at the rate your going. Puro ka tingen e.

K: At least libre yung tingen.

and she did come back. and we talked bout our past relationships, our dreams and the hang-ups we’d been through. and at some point as she talked about a problem she had i just held her hand and told her “everythings gonna be alright.” and then she leaned on my shoulder. i couldnt remember how long i was holding her hand in silence, it just felt so good to be there at that moment. we were just two souls intertwined on that beach at that very moment.

we talked for 12 straight hours and i didnt really feel it took us that long to talk. as we left i just took her to her car and just kissed her lightly on the cheek. she smiled at me as she drove away.

then i got into mine and i was halfway to my house when i saw a bud of mine, he was a classmate from high school and a constant companion when we were in UP. he asked where i went and i said, “i was with _____.” he said, “did you score?” i said i didnt. he retorted, “tanga mo naman.” then i looked at him and smiled, “oo pare antanga ko nga.” but deep inside i knew that day and the moment we had was just perfect.

Slowly, I walked past the lobby where we used to talk. In those days I always wished the gray van wouldnt come so we’d still have time to talk about her classes, teachers and dreams. She never really cared whether I talked or not. Its like she had this perpetual frown on her face every time I was around. Still, I persisted with flowers, calls, and frequent visits to her classes. A sem passed, two sems, a summer, but still nothing. The feeling was so unbearable, to be ignored was the last thing I wanted to happen. I felt so little, it was like all the confidence in me suddenly turned to pulp and I was left licking my wounds.

She was a god. All the things I did always seemed insignificant. But now when I think about it probably I just put so much pressure on myself that I just couldnt do the things I was supposed to do. Every word, every movement was torture. The pain of loving, I told myself.

Its so silly how people just fall in love with the thought of loving. They psyche themselves up and just go on a wild goose chase just to make there lives a wee bit mushier, a wee bit happier. Instead of waking up thinking of books and deadlines, we want to wake up thinking of someone, a god of sorts. We always want to have things that we could never have and we just end up chasing waterfalls.

I stood at the doorway, peering inside the room. New faces, new voices filled the air. Yet in the raucous and in the bustle I still managed to see her. She smiled at me and I smiled back. Slowly I backed out of the door and walked away

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